James 4:14

yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

The Start Of Another Prayer Plan

Along with my 21 Day Daniel Fast I had a prayer plan that helped me daily through the steps and trials of the fast. The daily prayer brought me closer to God and has really became a part of my daily life. Yesterday I started another prayer plan. Its a 3 week prayer plan just titled "Prayer."

Today's reading was Luke 11:1-12. It was almost a guide if you will on how to pray. In the verses it holds the Lord's prayer, but my favorite verse was verse 9:

And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

I love this verse because it's raw, the bible says ASK-it will be given, SEEK-you will find, KNOCK-and it will be opened unto you. All we have to do is turn our faces towards the Lord and he is ready to meet our needs.

Have you talked to God today?

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Unfavorable Pizazz



Unfavorable pizazz is so unlike me.

This week has been a very trying week for me. I have been sick since Saturday evening, early am Sunday. I ended up having strep throat, which I have never had before and I was miserable. I missed church, which for me is what my week revolves around. I lost 10 pounds over the course and had it not been for Clayton I probably would have ended up hospitalized because I only ate when he would make me and only got out of bed when he was off work to wash the sheets so he wouldn't get sick.

Finally today... I'm getting out of bed, slowly but my dad is over coaxing me out by telling me he washed my car for me to take a drive and its 60 degrees out. This afternoon I got a call that had already made me upset and I talked Clayton out of a rage (and me too to be honest) it felt good to be out. I hadn't driven in a week. Windows down, sunroof open, music loud, sunglasses, it was as corny as I am making it sound...

So with my weak 10 pound lighter self and some negative thoughts that I have some guilt for I am headed to church for the weekend to serve Christ. We usually attend the 1130 on Sunday and serve at the 1pm service but we are really spending the weekend with the Lord. We will be there for tomorrow evenings services and then again on Sunday for services.

I need my Pizazz back!!!!!!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Day 21 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast- THE END

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Day 21 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast- THE END


Ok so I was totally upset that I couldn't make it to church this Sunday, I started running a 103.1 fever overnight and was in no way shape or form I was going to be able to leave the house.... but no excuses... I am watching it online after I finish this magical blog entry.




It's the end, I did it, I finished. And I inspired my close friend Krista to do that fast as well and she completed it as well, I was so proud of her. I feel so fulfilled and changed for the better going through this fast. I loved every moment of it and look forward to continuing to repeat this every year for Christ and myself. I am going to go all in with a deeper relationship with Christ. Christ is diving in and I am going to allow him into our home and our life , we will be working more with the children at lifechurch.tv.

I am so excited about getting baptised on February the 20th with Clayton and Tony, we are really changing our lives, they are not ours anymore. I have so much to give Lord I can't wait to share it with you.



Thank you in advance for the healing of my neck and back and thank you for holding hand and we walk through the roads you paved for us for Tony. I know there is a glorious ending insight for him as well. Your measure of magnificent are beyond measures, I praise glory to you Christ Our Savior maker of Heaven and Earth, you gave your one and only Son, Jesus Christ for our sins. You are the Almighty GOD.


Thank you for all my friends and family for your support during the last 21 days.
I love you all
Also, Thank you to www.lifechurch.tv and the mobile bible app called youversion

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Day 20 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast

Zechariah 7:1-14

Reading about Obedience Better Than Fasting

One more day of fasting, I can't believe that 20 days have passed so quickly. In today's reading we are to ask in what ways reflecting with God in our fast has softened our heart and influenced us and influenced us in treating other people differently.Becoming slower to anger is something that I have needed to hear for years from Christ. I have been a single more most all of my life and hate when my children walk away in sadness when they could have been redirect without tears. He Lord is working on me and I am standing here arm wide open ready to receive.


Today was a pretty busy day we got up and headed to pick up Brandon, Clayton's brother, we headed to Old Paris Flee Market just to walk around and see there was anything out there. Not much but it was a good time. We had to me at Johnnie Carino's for dinner at 330 for Sierria'a birthday. Sierra is Brandona's daighter, she has a a baby just like I dad at her age. She just found out she got her high school diploma this week and we will get to watch her walk across the stage in a cap and gown. I m so proud of her. I so know how she feels and want her to do great things with her life. I promised her an cruise when she graduates, So we are saving to takes her, as promised

Good Job Sierra, reach for the stars

Friday, January 21, 2011

Day 19 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast


Day 19

As the fast is starting to come to an end I am wondering how I am going to keep up the daily readings in my life. I love the impact it has had on my feelings about my life and what God has in store for me. I use to question him and now I don,t at all. I know there is a reason for what I am going through.

today reading was Psalm 84 1-12, my favorites were 10 & 12

10- For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand.
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
Than dwell in the tents of wickedness.
---------make me a doormat I don't care but I will be in heaven with my Lord and not in the depths of darkness

12- O Lord of hosts,
Blessed is the man who trusts in You!
----------all that the Lord asks is that we believe and sing his praises!!!!!!!!!





******HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAYTON******

There are days that this man is my hero.


Today was Clayton's birthday. Clayton has been a great addition to my life. When we where first brought together we had alot of fun together, then I started to push him away and didn't want to be around him. He stuck beside me and has been such a great help. Helps me through nights when I can't walk or sleep, or when my pain is so bad that I can't talk because I am crying so hard I can't think. He is great. Words cannot explain the gratitude I feel for this man.

I sent him a candy bouquet at work, he was totally surprised. I then made reservations at P F Changs for dinner and we had a great dinner together, we went to the casino and spent about 60 dollars and walked out when we didn't' win anything. Then came home. Tomorrow we are going to send time with his brother go to a movie and the to his nieces birthday dinner then church on Sunday............ it's going to be a great weekend

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Day 18 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast


Day 18

For today I chose to take a fast2feast challenge from the lifechurch.tv menu it look like this:




He said What I promised you, I will do it............. He will answer my prayers.. I know it.....


Today's youversion.com reading's were Joel 2:12-32, the very first verse spoke straight to my heart. Joel 2:12 “Now, therefore,” says the Lord, “Turn to Me with all your heart, With fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.”

Turn to Him with ALL your heart, ALL your fasting ALL your weeping and ALL your morning....reading further, he is slow to anger and of great kindness.

I am learning to look to him in all that I do, for every move that I make I am grateful and I owe my everything to. I have also learned that I have to live more Christ-like, more slow to anger and greater in kindness. I am not perfect and will always be seeking him for perfection. For perfection is what we seek because we were born sinners.

In verse 32 He says "And it shall come to pass That whoever calls on the name of the Lord Shall be saved." I am saved everyday because I seek his name.

I also got the call I was waiting for regarding our baptism in February. Clayton, Tony and I are scheduled to be baptised on February 20th at 1pm. We will attend our regular 1130 church service and be baptised at the 1pm service. I am so excited to be cleansed, washed and reborn in Christ's Kingdom. And for my son to be able to be part of this experience is so amazing to me. I am proud of the changes that Clayton has made and the route that he has taken in his life towards Christ.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Day 17 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast




Day 17

In my readings today, Daniel 3:1-30, God showed facts and boldness again that He will be with us through the fire. There are countless stories in the bible of this, yet there are still days that I fear my prayers are not being heard. I fear no more. I know he hears me. There is testament to it. Although I am going through hard times God is walking me through the fire just as he did the 3 me that stood up to the king in scripture. I have more faith than I have ever had.

I am so glad that I chose this experience. This fast has been many answered prayers for me, I understand now why I am here. Why I am a mother. I was born a sinner. I will be spend eternity with my Savior. I will teach my children to love Christ just as I do and they do will spend eternity with the the Lord.

Thank you Lifechuch for introducing me to the 21 Day Daniel Fast. it has brought me closer to Christ through it's daily teachings and prayers and of course the fasting is a constant reminder.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Day 16 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast

Day 16

Sweet 16

16 of 21

71.4 % COMPLETE

I woke up this morning excited to pray, of course as always though I headed to my kitchen to get meds so I could make sure I would make it through the day. I got back to my bed opened my laptop and went straight to my readings:

An Exuberant Declaration of Faith

1 A Psalm of David. The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked came against me
To eat up my Can we meet up sometime this week to try to get some kind of money situation worked out?
Do not leave me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation.

10 When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the Lord will take care of me.

11 Teach me Your way, O Lord,
And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.

12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence.

13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.

14 Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!


Although I wake up feeling like the world is heavy on my shoulders I must push on. This is what the Lord is telling me though his teachings. It's amazing how these words are just what I need to hear, they are my strength and my guidance, I will not stray. Thank you Lord for showing me the way.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Day 15 Of The 21 Day Daniel Fast




Day 15 and a Monday back to work. I wondered how I would do but I took 2 bananas and my wheat toast crackers. We where busy at Dr Craven's office. I woke up in pain but went straight to my pills and then to the shower to avoid wanting to stay in bed and wanting to stay home. It's hard to want to do anything when it hurt to stand up. It would be so different if it was my arm or leg, but it is my neck. My meds did good and held me over til about 2pm which is about typical so I took some more meds to get me home so I could take my stronger meds when I got home ( I can't take those and drive)

My www.youversion.com reading today was Psalm 51:1-19, verse 2 touched me " Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, And cleanse me from my sin." One Sunday, February the 20th 2011 Clayton, Tony and I will be getting baptized on February the 20th. I was baptized as a child but feel that my relationship with Christ is totally renewed.

I pray tonight for my friend Tiffany Irwin, she is having a CT scan of her kidneys, trying to figure out what is going on with her kidneys, they have mentioned that they may be trying to shut down. I pray that the the Lord will heal and help her with her pain. Help the doctors and medical professionals use their tools to help her. I will continue to lift her up in prayer this week in hopes that he answers and does what he intends is his will.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Day 14 Of the 21 Day Daniel Fast

Service today was amazing as always......... Whys is it that by Friday I an craving to go back on Sunday. I think, that since now I really dont go out anymore I will start volunteering on Saturday evening services, maybe with the life kides groups or something. I know I would love it.

The new series was "I QUIT"

Brandon, Clayton's brother, who just got release from a 5 year jail sentence on Tuesday came with us and loved it which I was so excited about. The message was about GOD Intentions.... about not making excuses.

In the talk notes:As soon as I decided to be different, Satan gives me EXCUSES to stay the same.



Then the question was asked.....>What does God want to be different about your life? I answered.... pray more, be more of a spiritual leader in my home and pray more with my children.

Then the question was asked.....>Why does God want this part of your life to be different? He want me to pray more to glorify his name, he wants me to be more of a spiritual leader in my home to teach my children to be prophets and believers of Christ and he wants me to pray more with my chidren to be glorified in Christ and love Christ and know Christ loves them as I love then


Soooooooooo to do these and other things in my life I will DO WHAT I CAN DO & TRUST GOD TO DO WHAT I CANNOT DO

The Lord says........"Blessed are those who hunger"... I can relate to that. Here are some blessings that God come to mind.

This year has been a hard year for me, physically I have suffered and the people that have helped me pet through these times the most are Clayton and my parents. Clayton has come to every set of injections that I have had and nursed e back to health in the days, how ever many it took, afterwards. No matter what the cost, time of day or amount of tears I cried he was there for me to lean on. I have really never had anyone ever show me that type of unconditional care. My parents have been so supportive and helpful with my kids when I wasn't able to take care of them and Clayton wasn't able to take care of me and them at the same time. Even if I just needed a break to take a nap and didn't want to have to worry about the kids being awake while I slept they never hesitated. Thank you both.



I pray for the day that you all will be able to see and enjoy me again as a fun and exciting pain free person I once was. I thank God everyday for the blessings of you in my life, even if it is at the cost of me enduring at trial period in my life.

Day 13 Of the 21 Day Daniel Fast




Day 13

Today has been the easiest day by far of the fast. I am getting really use to the food and am considering sticking to the vegan like diet after the fast, I feel better. With the amount of medication I take daily my digestion isn't the best it should be. The amount of vegetables and fruit the fast has me eating is helping me in that regard tremendously. I enjoy looking for different things to eat and cook. Today we went grocery shopping and I bought tofu. I am excited to try a recipe or two out with that and see just how interesting that will end up. I loved the tofu dish I got from Pei Wei so maybe I can pull it off.

Today's message on my youversion.com app was about how He has brought me from darkness into light. I fell hopeful now about my health. Instead of praying for relief I am praying for thanks. I know He will provide for me. I know He will answer my prayers.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Day 12 Of the 21 Day Daniel Fast


Day 12 of 21 day Daniel fast and my first day back to work in a while. I thought it was going to be harder than it was just because of the many temptations but I was at the Community location today so there wasn't any easy food access other than the drug reps brought Chick-Fil-A. But I got to tell them prior to them coming that I wanted a fruit cup. For dinner I had portobello mushrooms and a sweet potato with cinnamon and a touch of butter. I tried hummus today and was not impressed at all. I didn't like the taste of it but it might of been the garden flavor we got.

My youversion.com reading today talked about the craving we have while fasting and realizing the control they have over our lives. I recognized a can of soda opening today and my mouth began to water immediately. Since I have been home most of my fast I haven't' had to deal with my cravings first hand. And WOW, that one slapped me in the face today.

It felt great to be able to work today though, I was pain free for most all of the day but was worn out and had a headache when I got home. I felt like I had accomplished something unlike when I am at home in pain laying bed all day. I have to take take the good with the bad though and do the best I can.

Thank you Lord for my day and good night,
Michelle


Angels bless and angels keep
Angels guard me while I sleep
Bless my heart and bless my home
Bless my spirit as I roam
Guide and guard me through the night
and wake me with the morning's light.
Amen

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Day 11 Of the 21 Day Daniel fast




Today on www.youversion.com I am guided to match my faith with my actions. Today I am to ask God where He wants to lead me during this second half of my fast.

My reading from youversion today is from James 1, it reads.

James 1

1 James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ,

To the twelve tribes scattered among the nations:

Greetings.

Trials and Temptations

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
9 Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. 10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. 11 For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.

12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

13 When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14 but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. 15 Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

16 Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. 17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. 18 He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created.

Listening and Doing

19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. 21 Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.
22 Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23 Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror 24 and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25 But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.

26 Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight rein on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless. 27 Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.


I need to hear this these mornings. When I wake up I need to remember that this pain that I feel is for HIM. When I face these trials I need to know that these are tests of my faith and I need to let HIM do his work and let it mature and complete my faith so that it will not lack a thing. I was patient with my pain today and allowed my parents to help me do things in the house I normally would do without help.

Lord hear my prayer tonight:

Prayer for Pain

Heavenly Father, You are intimately aware of the struggle I am experiencing the pain and the despair. You know the desire of my heart to be healed of this pain. I ask now for Your healing touch. I know that You are able and that just like in Bible times, You can heal me.

I also understand that You will chose what is best for me. I pray that through this trial, I will draw close to You and that You will be my comfort and strength. I pray that ultimately, whatever happens, You will be glorified through me.

I pray this in Jesus’ name, Amen.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Day 10 Of the 21 Day Daniel fast




Today I was in bed until 1 o'clock in pain, my mom and dad brought me a salad trying to help and still honoring my fast, I love them. As I started to move around when I got some pain meds in me I had to drive to Edmond to pick up another prescription for more medicaitons. It gets old and I am really sick of it. But I thank the Lord everyday for the life I do have and for the life that he is giving me. I ordered Clayton and I Pei Wei on my way home. Tofu is my new love, it's great.

I dont hve much to say today other than I am tired and I have my bags backed to go to work tomorrow, I need to get back into a normality, I need my friends, I need conversation and I need a paycheck. My kids are great, but I dont want them to watch me suffer. I feel sometimes all they see me do is suffer. HOpefully Sheila will understand if my days are short at first then work to longer days... well good ngiht now now... God is Good all the time.............

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Day 9 Of the 21 Day Daniel fast



So Day 9 I started with a much needed video from the lifechurch.tv group, I attached it below. God has a unbelievable way of telling me that I can do it. I stayed in bed most of the day until my new bed showed up. I am hopeful that this will help my sleeping patterns and allow me to sleep better and wake up not so stiff.

I went with Clayton to his parents house to welcome home him brother from jail, he has been in for 5 years now and the family was relived to see him, people were coming in and out to see him, they served ribs, which I could't eat so I helped serve and just ate portabello mushrooms when I got home. I invited Brandon to church on Sunday and he was excited to go with Clayton and I. OK, a good night prayer, thank you Lord for your blesssings......



Dear God,
As I lie here seeking another good night of restful sleep, give me the peace of mind and the ability to relax.
Fulfill my needs for mental and physical restoration so I may wake up ready for another beautiful day which I hope You will allow me to live to enjoy with praise and thanks to You and our Lord Jesus.
Amen.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Day 8 of 21 day Daniel fast





Day 8

My pain was pretty bad today but my choice of meal was easier than I expected. I think that with my pain I dealing with more depression which can wither cause me to eat more of less, in the past months it has been more, since my fast less. I either opt not to eat because I have to think a little harder about what I am eating or am hurting to bad to cook or make something. I really want to go to work this week. I need to be around my co workers. I am getting a new bed which I believe will help, hopefully, tomorrow. Can't wait.

Well it's a short one tonight, headed to bed good night readers.........God Bless you!

Sunday, January 09, 2011

Day 7 of 21 day Daniel fast




Wow it has been a great 7 days since I started the 21 day Daniel Fast. I feel great, I celebrated today with a amazing church service today. Lifechurch celebrated 15 years this weekend. Worship brought me to tears, nothing in particular just the great worship songs and lifting praise to our Lord.

We picked up the the kids today from their father's houses and took them to out to eat and TGIPFriday's I was not impressed and the inability for the staff to find anything for me to eat off the menu. We had just been to Toby Keith's Bar and Grill and it was easier there that at TGIFridays.

I think I may have helped a guy get back to coming to Lifechurch yesterday with out realizing it. We went to look for new bed furniture and the sales associate that was helping was telling me how he was from our of town. I asked where and he said Edmond. I asked if he wen to church out there and was reaching into my purse to grab a card to invite him to come and he said "Yea, I use to attend Lifechurch." I told him he needed to come back and that we would be looking for him and if he ever say us to stop us. When we left the furniture place I thought, I wonder if that guy will come? I wonder if I won't be what he needed to make a change in his life, must like i felt.

Day 6 of 21 day Daniel fast






As the days go on the fasting is getting easier and the mission is becoming more apparent to me what I am doing and the impact it is already making on my life.

I woke up in pain put it was relieved by pained medicines. Today was the day I was going to see a friend I haven't seen since I was at least 14. Daniel Snyder was Wynn's best friend, the did taekwondo together when i met them and we all became really good friends

Fist we went to the cometary fist to visit when and Linda, it was a lot easier that I thought. I expected a lot more tears but there was laughter and remembrance of their lives. They would have been happy we won't weeping.

After that Daniel and Amber had to take their kids to their parents because we had dinner plans at Toby Keith's Bar& Grill, which was amazing. of course i stuck to my feasting as best as I could. They will forever now be best friend




Here is picture of Dan and i.................... so missed having him in mt life

Friday, January 07, 2011

Day 5 of 21 day Daniel fast




Day 5 I actually can't believe I have done as well as I have. I don't honestly think I have stuck to a diet as long as I have this fast. The temptations are all over. We never cleansed the house prior to me starting the fast, the kids can't fast so its all here at my fingertips. Sure there is noone around, the only person that is accountable for my actions is me. I have been driving in the car thinking "I can just get a quick burrito, noone will know," but NOPE, no way DEVIL, you will not have me..........I have to answer to God. If I feel weak I ask HIM for strength. I pray at night before I sleep. I pray when I wake up. I feel relieved and less stressed.

My pain is still ever present, it will end one day................... I know it will.....

There have been a few events that have upset me today concerning my friends and family who seem concerned but not genuine enough. I am trying to fight back from thinking unkind thoughts because I know they truly do not know how much it would mean to get a phone call. I'm just going to end that right there.

Good night all. Thank you Lord in advance for your blessings.

Thursday, January 06, 2011

Day 4 of 21 day Daniel fast



Day 4 -

Started early, about 4am for me, my pain had been my alarm clock lately and my worship que. I took my medication then read my you version scripture for the day. This morning I sat down with a plate of pistachios and a orange and had breakfast with cranberry juice.

I had a semi-productive day, for that is, I can usually only work about 2 hours on a project then I am down for 4. I did manage to get all the remaining Christmas decorations packed and ready for my dad to come and get to take to storage for me. Carlee was home with me so I was a personal entertainer also. I listened to alot of worship songs to try to stay positive throughout the day so I wouldn't feel as sad as I did yesterday, it worked.


TODAY'S DEDICATION:

Today I am dedicating my day of fasting to my friend Ryan Wakeham. His family is struggling today with the loss of his father's mother, she passed away 2 days ago, and his uncle with whom he was very close to growing up passed away today. He is personally struggling with the burden of waiting to find out if he needs shoulder surgery.

O God, you do not willingly grieve or afflict
your children.
Look with pity on the suffering of this family
in their loss.
Sustain them in their anguish;
and into the darkness of their grief
bring the light of your love;
through Jesus we pray.
Amen.

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

Day 3 of 21 Day Daniel Fast

Today I dedicating my prayer to Angela Curliss father's father who is going home on hospice today, she has said that he has so feeding tube. Fill him with your love and grace. Angela's mother's mother is now in the hospital and is suffering from fluid on her lungs, please surround her with you grace and strength. Give the caregivers the strength, knowledge and love to care for them so they heal fast.

Lord, look upon them with eyes of mercy, may your healing hand rest upon them, may your
life giving powers flow into every cell of their body and into the depths of my soul,
cleansing, purifying, restoring them to wholeness and strength for
service in your Kingdom.
Amen.



Day 3 was rough I woke up weak and sad. I had to take Tony to the doctor and learned that he had to have testing for possible Auditory Processing Disorder, they also changed his medication again. We then while we were downtown went to see Trey at his new law firm, the kids enjoyed it. I took Tony to school and then Carlee my parents.



I was missing Wynn like crazy so I went to see him. I knelt and cried for a good while and asked why a million times. I am having diner with Daniel and his wife this weekend and can't wait to see him again. I miss him and Linda so much.




Short blog, got to go to bed.............

Daniel and I will be up there this weekend Wynn

Day 2 of 21 day Daniel fast

Today was a very trying day for me. I woke up at 3 am this am in pain that I wish I could explain. It makes my knees weak and I want to scream but I have two children sleeping. I decided to eat a pear and take some pain medicine and try to pray although I wan't able talk I was speaking to him through my begging really for some relief. I wonnder sometimes if there is a breaking point for me and how close to it I am. The fasting is not breaking me as much as the pain is right now.

I will say it is hard to fix my kids something for dinner and make myself something else. This evening for dinner I wasn't able to stand up, talk, let alone make decisions for the kids or any housework, I was on the couch crying for 2 hours til Clayton came over and brought me my pain medication because I couldn't even get to it. I them slept for another hours or 2 til it kicked in. He forced me to eat food he had bought and insists that my health is not in a great condition to be doing a fast at this time. I agreed at the time but will resume tomorrow. I just ate some chips and queso and loaded potato loco things from Taco Mayo, no soda though.......


So if you are reading this extra prayers are needed, the pain is nearly unbearable. I need to call my counselor tomorrow because I am getting that un willing to want to move forward, get better, get out of bed, just a general bad depression...................

Monday, January 03, 2011

Day 1 Of the 21 day Daniel fast

I actually started last night buy using my eyeliner and writing myself a note to pray in the morning. It helped so much because just as I said I woke up late, I didn't sleep well anyways, between my pain and and daughter waking up for milk at 5 am it was a ling night. I woke up at 7 am and was running when i hit the floor. Hit the shower and as I was showering remembered my note about the praying. I lifted my hand to the sky and prayed for the Lord to use my eyes, ears, mouth, and feed to follow his lead. I asked for strength in the 21 day fast because he knows if anyone does I don't follow plans well.

After, my pre-madonna princess breakdowns about the colors of her hair bows and where she wanted to go verses where she was going to go today Carlee and I made it out the door. Off to daycare she went without a tear once we were in the car. I headed out of town and drove through a Sonic, you may think this would be hard, but nope I remembered the had bananas, so I got 2 and a ice water with lemon. Both really good. I was a few minutes late for work but had a great day, only worked til noon and had to come home at noon because I was hurting so bad.

Dinner was good I looked up meal plans and found a chili that sounded great so below is what we had:

Vegetarian Chili

2 medium-sized green peppers, chopped

1 medium-sized yellow onion, chopped

1 zucchini, sliced-----

1 yellow squash, sliced---- i used frozen

2 tablespoons salad oil

2 tablespoons chili powder

¾ teaspoon salt

¼ teaspoon ground red peppers

2 cups corn kernels (fresh or frozen)--- i used frozen

2 16 oz. cans tomatoes (juice and all)

2 16 oz. cans pinto beans (juice and all)

2 16 oz. cans black beans (juice and all)

1 4 oz. can mild green chilies

1 4 oz. can of tomato paste


Chop and sauté in oil the peppers and onions. Add the sliced squashes, chili powder, salt, ground red peppers, and corn. When all the vegetables are soft but still firm, add the tomatoes, all the beans, the green chilies, and the tomato paste. Stir until just blended.

Bring to a boil and then reduce the heat. Let simmer for 20 minutes stirring occasionally to prevent sticking.

Yield: 6 generous servings



I am not going to lie it was not bad at all, I was pretty amazed at how good it was. Definitely have to try it. Not a hard day. I have ordered to cookbook from the local Mardel to help in the next 20 days thought I can see this getting harder. I bought lots of veggies and decided to not go so hard core, I am drinking juices at night with dinner and water all day just so I don't get burnt out and give up.

and almonds for a snacks tonight............. yum

I also decided to start listening to only the Christian radio stations in my car for the time I am on the fast to help strengthen my mind and spirit.

Sunday, January 02, 2011

21 Day Fast Starts Tomorrow


So today I was once again touched at churched and inspired to make moves spiritually.
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FIRSTS was the subject. Last year I was inconsistent spiritually but this year I WILL be consumed. I have already started. But there are somethings I need to work on the first of the day and the first of the year.

1) At the first of the day: Seeking God first thing in the day. Believe me. When I wake up there are one of two things on my mind. Either pain or "OMG we are running late how fast can we get ready." From now on I will lift my heart to God and ask him to lead me. Where ever that prayer takes me at that moment that prayer will be the first thing I do.

2) At the first of the week: I do attend worship weekly and have been for the last month and a half to 2 months. I feel the change it is making in me and my life and I love it. I started serving at the following worship I attend as a greeter and love it too. Because I have learned we are suppose to worship, serve, tithe, and share the Lord. Being with people that love the Lord as I do make me feel great.

3) At the first of the month: Tithing was the third thing we are suppose to do. Tithe use to be so hard for me to do for a long time until I realized that the blessing of having a great job and a house and heat and a car and clothing and shoes and a tv and a bed and a couch and children that have insurance and that have clothes and a tv and a bed etc... etc... etc... etc... We are truly a spoiled nation, imagine all the people in other nations sleeping on soil, there neighbors only on the other side of a piece of cloth, you both have starving children and you are both waiting for the next drop of rice from the sky from a airplane only to stand in a line to give it to your staving child. Seems like too much right, but its not. Its a reality somewhere. Christ gave us our blessings, this money we make is not ours, its his, we are bringing it back to him. NOT TO HARD NOW HUH?

4) At the first of the year: Fasting, whether it be for 3 days, a week, 21 days from something you love, it has to reasonable. in the Bible Christ fasted for 40 days twice,.......WHAT???? I know right...

This is the only one I have not accomplished, I am doing it and not for a measly 3 days , 21 days, I am doing it to get closer to God, I am doing it for my health. I have to get better, I need a prayer, I need my neck healed, and Christ can do that. He made the blind see this neck thing I have going on is nothing. I have been questioning him and I need to get back in the palm of his hand again.

I am going to do the 21 day Daniel Fast which consist of all fruits and vegetables, fruit and vegetable juice and water, not meat or bread. I will probably be leaving more and more about it as I go but I imagine I will become a lot closer to my blog to so stay tuned.

Links

My mobile link:
www.youversion.com/reading-plans/21-day-fast
Live Lifechurch.tv link:
http://live.lifechurch.tv