In My Head

Life is good It's been years since I've blogged and I missed it. I miss having a place to voice my thoughts. I had a lot of changes in 2014. Another neck surgery, I quit working at the Heart Hospital, loooong painful recovery, and got a new job! Luckily change doesn't bother me. I've learned over the years to roll with the punches. I was blessed with Clayton in my life, he's been my rock. He's helped me cope with pain unbearable to the point I can barely take care of myself let alone him or my kids. He's patient, kind and loving. More than I've ever deserved. God sent me an angel in my darkest hours, for sure. Tony is 17 now. Teenagers are a mother's true test at motherhood. They make toddlers look like a walk in the park. He mouthy, opinionated, lazy, and smelly. I love him dearly and I'm glad this is just a phase. Thankfully I get nothing but compliments from others when he is away from me. At least I can say he learned something......

A new friend of mine advised me to get back to blogging, so here I am. One topic at a time just like suggested, it will be hard because I have so much to say. I will start with the number one in my life, God. Since the seperation I have started back to church. It was definielty something that our marriage was missing, not because we didn't have time, simply because we couldn't agree on a church. Silly huh? Well most things were in our relationship. It is the one day of the week I look forward to. I have friends that will attend with me but often have something else going on.... So I go alone. I sit in the same place for them just in case they happpen to show up. Not only do I love it but my kids are just as excited as I am to go. Carlee runs right to her class when we get the the building, after she stops and talks to the tree of course. And Tony just grabs his name tag and says "See ya mom." The message always hits my heart like a ton of bricks. I would ...