In My Head

Life is good It's been years since I've blogged and I missed it. I miss having a place to voice my thoughts. I had a lot of changes in 2014. Another neck surgery, I quit working at the Heart Hospital, loooong painful recovery, and got a new job! Luckily change doesn't bother me. I've learned over the years to roll with the punches. I was blessed with Clayton in my life, he's been my rock. He's helped me cope with pain unbearable to the point I can barely take care of myself let alone him or my kids. He's patient, kind and loving. More than I've ever deserved. God sent me an angel in my darkest hours, for sure. Tony is 17 now. Teenagers are a mother's true test at motherhood. They make toddlers look like a walk in the park. He mouthy, opinionated, lazy, and smelly. I love him dearly and I'm glad this is just a phase. Thankfully I get nothing but compliments from others when he is away from me. At least I can say he learned something......

For 2 years I have been fighting for someone, a doctor, to listen to me. I prayed for God to bless me with a dr that has healing hands and that is willing to help me. At the first of the year I did a 21 day spiritual fast for this reason. Praying to God many times a day. I believe that Dr Fong was brought into my life to heal me. I am on a new a better playing field with Christ. He provides for me when I am stressed about financial situations. I have learned to pray differently. I now pray for thanks in advance because I know through Him it is all possible. I don't beg for things I want anymore. We communicate daily. He offers me assurance and faith that all will unravel to my advantage as long I stick to his word. With this happening I have learned to trust again. I have learned to speak to my child in a way that is through God's word. I pray more for others and offer them the tools that I have after I have used them so that they too may have the relationship I have with him...