Pain

Oh Lord, help me to feel your calming hand upon me

when I am in pain.

Let your ever-loving comfort enfold me,

And give me the heart to see

that in my suffering, I am becoming

closer to you...and more divine.

Coming up on my 4th set of injections since April I can't help but wonder if it will help.  There is nothing more disappointing that watching the patients before you come out and be so excited about life and being pain free. I want to be pain free.  I can't stand feeling like I am missing out on so much of life because of pain.  I am glad that I am beginning to understand the dimensions of pain and what I have lost in my life.  I have lost the freedom I had before of going and going with no physical pain making me want to take medications or just lay down.  I have to make sure that my medications go everywhere with me just in case. I can't workout like I use to. I am so grateful for having the best people in my life. Patience and understanding are characteristics that I took for granted before in people.  I am not afraid to ask for help now.  Thank you to all my family for your patience and caring hearts.

I am grateful.