Although your father loves you he does not express it a way that other people understand. I have noticed lately that the things you say to me when you return from his house are in a different tune. This change in actions with you worried me because you have never done it. When you say things like "my dad doesn't spank me. I know that and there is a reason he has never had to spank you or get on to you like I do, your never there long enough for you to have a reason too. To your father you are just a playmate.
Your father and I have has numerous conversations about setting a schedule for him picking you us and dropping you off. Most split households get to see their families every other weekend. Just as you have seen Carlee do with Eric. I am sorry your father doesn't think that is available for him. Until he can make arrangements for every other weekend (picking up at 8pm on Friday and taking you to school at 8 on Monday am) then you will not be able to go with him. He has been made aware of the schedule he has to adhere to but says he can't because of work. I am giving him no other option because with your ADHD you have to have a structure environment. I have told you dad about that and he refuses by saying her has to work on those days and cant do it. So when he can, he will, hopefully soon
I don't ever want you to think that I would hold you back . from seeing him, My goal is for you to have a healthy relationship with him.
I love you kiddo, more that you will ever know. You are getting so handsome and tall, keep up the good work in school and you could sore high in life. I am so happy that you are my sone
Michelle, you are AMAZING mother. amazing. I think writing this letter is such a gesture of love to your son. My dad was very similar to Tony's. When he chose few and far between occasions to come pick me up, I blamed my mom for keeping him from me. She never told me though, I had to figure it out many years later, and as upset as I am with him for putting his daughter on the back burner I am with her too for not telling me the facts. God bless you. I pray for you often because I know your role as a single mother is so difficult. You have strength I can only dream of having.
ReplyDeleteMichelle...he will definitely know one day and have no doubt in anything about his raising when he gets a little bit older. There are definitely so many changes going on emotionally and physically for him right now changing from a young boy to a young man. He loves you unconditionally!! I said things like that to my mom so many times. Now, I understand, but of course then I didn't. I love you, hold strong, you have always been and always will be an amazing, strong, and loving mother! I <3 you...Cass
ReplyDeleteThank you Kendra and Cassidy. I didn't come from a home of divorced parents and hate that my so has to have these feelings. Thank you both for your support.
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