Standing still

rising early to board a flight I was terrified. i had never ridin in a plane that held less that 50 passengers. i thought again about my kids and what they would do without me. Who would be their replacement? i kissed both kids before i left and headed to the airport. i knew there was a reason i was suppose to go these people had gone week after week with no hiccup... i can do this!

the flight there was awesome the plains of Oklahoma looked like slate tiles on a museum floor, all colors differently in a time like uniform style each marking the miles of land. most all of the towards the outer city had a circle outlined in a square from the crop irrigation systems. it was amazing.. we got there in about 40 minutes and got off to be greeted by a old beat up blue suburban.. we all laughed the girl were excited to introduce me to the country ways we had just stepped into. this old blue suburbans headliner touched our heads as we road to clinic. the doors squeaked and opened with a hard metal on metal grind and slammed with a heavy thud. the dr drove, he is a amazing heart dr who hold the lives of many people in his hands everyday yet is not to proud to drive a old pick up with the staff that supports and provides him assistance.

we arrived at the small hospital to set up clinic. our clinic was at the back doors of a small hospital. my desk was a fold out table that the dr fold out as soon as we walked in. a laptop and a borrowed copier was my office. the clinic's nurses station and dr's dictation area was the table just next to mine with two more laptops next to a gurney that the girls used for there personal belongings.

the people were nice. most had nearly nothing wrong but other were set up for surgery with in days and set to OKC for testing and surgery followups.

our day ended about 545 and we headed back to the airport in our newly stapled headliner suburban, thanks to the nuclear tech. he mended it during the day for us. we boarded the flight once again as the sun set and assumed the positions we started out in... the dr propped him feet on the day next to me and read his medical journals the whole flight..

as the sun went down the street lights went on and lit clusters of areas where the cars looked like there were all driving 5 mph. i wondered which cluster was which city, but couldn't tell. unlike the other girls i stayed awake taking in the moments of peace and ease I was having. i now that in a week my busy school schedule is starting back up and i should enjoy it while i have it.

getting off the plane i was relieved and saddened.. it was so peaceful up there and time stood still

i want to go back