Pain

Is it possible to bottle pain? If I could I would give the driver who decided to drive drunk the night of February 28th 2009 everyday for the next year. Then, I would ask him to live with it.

This last year I have had to live with pain that is unspeakable. It taked more than one 2 hour deposition to explain what happened from the moment he hit us to now. I have been humiliated at my job, having to sit for weeks with a black eye while checking hundres of patients in on a daily basis looking at you with questions and sympathy in thier eyes. Months of therapy, moment of hope when the pain goes away followed by a day of pain again that humbles you to tears. Along with all the other life obstacles throwing in pain is unfair.

Not being able to pick up you beautiful child when she runs to you after a day away from you with out thinking about how much it's going to hurt is not fair. Sitting through a 2 hour class with out feeling like you can't stand up when class is out is not fair. Headaches that last for hours is not fair. Uninterested in sleeping because you know that waking up will bring another pain is not fair. Looking down at your two year old to talk to her then looking back up and being dizzy is not fair. Going to therapy and crying in front of total strangers is not fair. Sitting through a deposistion where the drunk driver's lawyer attempts to make you feel like you did wrong is not fair.

I wish i could put this pain into word.... there would be so many.. right now they are pleading words with hope that the next doctor's a[pointment will be promising. This pain wasn't there befor that night and hopefully wont be here much longer....

Good night, off to my bed of pain. Only to wake up in the same pain...