In My Head

I am working with Jennifer this week and Ilove it, she is awesome. Going out this weekend, if I have to get a sitter that is what I will do.....................................

Talked to a friend today. I needed it.

I need a vacation so bad. Alone. I need to go somewhere and and be missed.. I am so frustrated and burnt out with my life. I am sick of cleaning up after people, running crazy and planning everything. I thought that spouses were suppose to help and make things easier. I dont like telling him what to do be cause I feel mean but then I just let it get all bottled up and come across as an ass. I just want some organization, some help with the little things. ughhhhhhhhhhh MEN!

So since my job change I have really realized how much I miss being around my kids all the time. A sacrifice I knew I would have to make but didn't think would bother me. I find myself talking about then alot and just wondering what they are doing, eating, thinking and wearing. I thank God everyday that they are healthy and strong kiddos. I hope that things get better for my family, the economy sucks and if only the people that have the money in the US that are micro-managing our income and finances could walk a day in our shoes they would understand. Our senators and legislatures just can't understand what it is like to have to work were it physically breaks you down then you have to worry about how your going to pay for a doctor to prescribe you medication that you have to take a loan out for a months prescription. Hopefully Obama will listen to this country's moans of desperation and help us. Love you dad (Jim), hang in there!

Welcome & Don't Be Offended So I needed a place to vent, a place to unwind, a place to be free, and speak my mind, free of criticism and judgement, opinion or emotion, someplace where I couldn't get in trouble for what I have to say. So I will try this to deal with life. Please do not be offended by the content, if you know me, during my blogging, it is what is in my head. I have dealt with alot of life changing events in the last couple of years and have just about lost everything that I use to call near and dear. The things that I once loved now are just not what I want or need in my life anymore. The hard part about it is I feel like no one gets it. I use to hold my friends so tight, as if they were family, and now they have all vanished during a time when I need them. I don't understand and quite honestly don't want to put myself in a place where I have to hear something that I don't want them to say because I fear what my reaction would be towards the...