Behind my smile
In the shadows of my smile there is a emptiness. Its always hide the truth. The truth that there is fear inside of me that wont go away. I want to run away from the darkness but here is no light to help show me the way. I want to be able to make someone happy but i can't becasue I am not happy. So I hurt people, not intentionally. My wants take over in an attempt to make things great. Then the truth sets in and I start to crumble. I never thought at 30 I would feel this helpless emotionally. The only thing I do know daily is that I live for my kids. If this means I am alone forever then so be it. I often wonder if I was made to be alone. It doesn't scare me to be alone and that bothers people. I tend to run when I cant read my feelings. I runaway from people who care. They and up hurt and it isn't fair. I am sorry to everyone I have hurt. I am sorry for not understanding me and I refuse to do it anymore. I havent always been like this but after being laid in fro...